The More It Hurts, the More You Should Love

Heaven's call can turn one's life upside down! This was the experience of Rev. Moon at the age of 15, when Jesus appeared to him, calling him to fulfill an overwhelming mission - to love God and love the world with the same heart and fervor as Jesus had done.

The following is an excerpt from Ch. 3 of his autobiography "As a Peace-Loving Global Citizen"

I was thrown into extreme confusion. I couldn’t open my heart to my parents and share my huge secret with them. But neither could I just keep it to myself. I was at a loss over what to do. What was clear was that I had received a special mission from Heaven. It was such a huge and tremendous responsibility. I shuddered in fear to think that I might not be able to handle it on my own. I clung to prayer even more than before, in an attempt to quiet my confused heart. But even this had no effect. No matter how much I tried, I could not free myself for even a moment from the memory of having met Jesus. In an effort to quiet my heart and my tears, I composed the following poem:

                                  Crown of Glory

When I doubt people, I feel pain.

When I judge people, it is unbearable.

When I hate people,

there is no value to my existence.

Yet if I believe, I am deceived.

If I love, I am betrayed.

Suffering and grieving tonight,

my head in my hands,

Am I wrong?

Yes I am wrong.

Even though we are deceived, still believe.

Though we are betrayed, still forgive.

Love completely, even those who hate you.

Wipe your tears away and welcome with a smile

Those who know nothing but deceit,

And those who betray without regret.

O, Master, the pain of loving.

Look at my hands.

Place your hand on my chest.

My heart is bursting, such agony.

But when I love those who acted against me,

I brought victory.

If you have done the same things,

I will give you the Crown of Glory.